As I look back tonight over the past year or so I can't help but think of how far I have come. I have changed so much since September 14, 2010. Yes I have lost over 80 pounds since my surgery but this is so much more than losing weight. This is about the life that I now have. This is about being able to do so much more. This is about being healthy. This is about being able to help other people to achieve what I have been so blessed to achieve.
I used to think that everything I can do now was for everyone else but me. I used to think that I was just destined to be FAT. Yes I was fat and there really is not way to get around it. To call me obese or even morbidly obese just does not do it justice. I know saying I was FAT is not politically correct but this is my life I am talking about and I don't have to be politically correct about myself.
This past December I did something I would have never thought I would do even if I had always been at a healthy weight. You see I have always played it safe, stay out of the way, don't bring attention to myself, just hide out and hopefully no one will notice me.
Well I am learning that I don't have to worry about hiding out and that it is alright and even good for me to get out of my comfort zone. It is alright to try and it is also alright to fail. You see I can't fail if I don't try. I would rather try and fail now than play it safe and not try. So this past December when I was on vacation I suggested we try something and do it. Something that would take me so far out of my comfort zone, that would take everything with in me to complete it. I went sky diving for the first time. To my surprise I loved it. It was so much fun and I dealt with one of my fears. Yes I not only suggested that we sky dive but I actually enjoyed it.
This is not about skydiving so much as it is about a new outlook on life. You see I have finally realized that I can't fail if I don't try. I will keep trying and if I fail I will just try harder. Safety is no longer an option. I must push forward and I must try. I can no longer just stay in my comfort zone. This last year and half have impacted not only my weight loss but my entire life. There has been a shift in my spirit as well. I am no longer sitting on the side lines watching every one else live life to its fullest, I am now living life to its fullest too. It is a good place to be and I can't wait to see what the future hold for me.
